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dispatch from may 31, 2025
Aug. 26th, 2025 12:12 pmI philosophize at length in my diary, and occasionally, I will eke out a nugget of wisdom that feels worth sharing. Here's one below.
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I think there are four experiences one can have that divorces oneself from the body: being sexually assaulted or raped, being trans/nonbinary, being considered ugly/disfigured/undesirable by broader society, and being disabled. So many of these experiences overlap. One comes to view one's own body as a burden, perhaps even separate. As an object that everyone else is begging you to discard of. They don't tell you it's because they want to own you. The insidious worm inside the average human's mind seeks to dominate the outcast, because the outcast is a reminder of their own fear of being outcast. That is why the proud and indignant outcast is particularly reviled -- proof that one is caged by one's own cowardice, proof that if one bothered to look at oneself straight-on without turning away, one would only find a small, shivering coward. Too many people are cowards in this world. They seek to destroy the mirrors.
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I think there are four experiences one can have that divorces oneself from the body: being sexually assaulted or raped, being trans/nonbinary, being considered ugly/disfigured/undesirable by broader society, and being disabled. So many of these experiences overlap. One comes to view one's own body as a burden, perhaps even separate. As an object that everyone else is begging you to discard of. They don't tell you it's because they want to own you. The insidious worm inside the average human's mind seeks to dominate the outcast, because the outcast is a reminder of their own fear of being outcast. That is why the proud and indignant outcast is particularly reviled -- proof that one is caged by one's own cowardice, proof that if one bothered to look at oneself straight-on without turning away, one would only find a small, shivering coward. Too many people are cowards in this world. They seek to destroy the mirrors.